So you're MAD at God huh?

One may wonder why I've titled this blog as I did. I did it intentionally because on day I was mad at God. I know a person can say it's not right or "holy" or "christ-like" to be mad at God, however, I'm keeping it real with myself and God because he already would know if I was mad at him right? He does know everything and he can handle it.

One day several years ago I was going to Grace community church in Clear Lake at the time and this particular Sunday I woke up crying and I didn't want to go to church because I had been having a pity party about where my life was and the thing I was mad at God for was my weight. I literally BLAMED him for being OBESE and you know how children throw fits and tantrums? Well, I had a major one that morning. As I said before I didn't want to go to church but I was raised to go to church every Sunday. My parents would say "you can say out and drink and party all night but as long as you are living in this house you will get up and go to church on Sunday." That was the rule. So that Sunday I was doing it out of habit. I cried all the way to church and I tried to dry my tears and not show people my pain. YOU KNOW HOW WE DO.

That service was different than any other service had been. Pastor Steve was letting us linger in worship for a long time and I was just crying out to God my heart and asking why wasn't he helping me lose the weight....many more words came from my mouth but when Pastor Steve got on stage, the first thing out of his mouth was "SO YOU'RE MAD AT GOD HUH?" I couldn't believe he said that....HE READ MY MAIL...;-p I didn't hear anything else Pastor Steve said that day because after he said that I started LAUGHING SOMETHING AWFUL. I told God "I'M NOT MAD AT YOU ANYMORE" but what he spoke to me changed my life FOREVER. He said "I'VE DONE MY PART, YOU NEED TO DO YOUR PART" he spoke that so clear to my spirit.

From that day forward I've never blamed him or anyone for my obesity. What I've learned is I wanted to keep eating all the junk I was eating and not exercise and be healthy. A little insane huh? I know lol I'm still a work in progress. I also knew if I GAVE MY PROBLEMS TO GOD HE WOULD FIX THEM but I would give them to him and try to fix them in my own strength and when you do that God can't work. So, I'm still in the process of letting God be what he said He would be and I'm enjoying the journey.

What I've learned through my life's journey is to be real with God but most importantly be real with myself. God knows me better than I know myself so I'm on a journey of finding the REAL ME and if people can't accept that, I'm so sorry for them because the only way I can be successful is be obedient to God and trust him with my life and not try to be someone I'm not. I'VE TRIED TO BE WHO PEOPLE WANTED ME TO BE AND THAT DIDN'T WORK FOR ME SO I'M KEEPING IT 110% REAL. I'm not trying to be arrogant because I know I have issues I have to deal with and God knows I'm working on them on a daily basis. I love how God takes us from where we are and uses us for great things when we SURRENDER to him.

I'm falling in love with Jesus more and more each day. I hope you will too because He has awesome things for you to do and if you could ever understand the greatness he has placed inside of you, you will be amazed. "He will do exceedingly abundantly more than you can ask or think according to the power that works in you" LET'S TAP INTO HIS POWER......R U READY?